This is a first time may be, I am writing something about a Person. I didn’t knew him or met him but saw him many times during my long night walks in Bandra with N. And this may be the last time also.
Every person on this planet tends to have an actor in their life who they really admire. For me , he was Sushant Singh Rajput.
And he supposedly died because of a dumb fuck girl. We all had a similar girl in our lives sometime but we were lucky enough to get out of her unscathed, but, unfortunately he wasn’t.
We lost a PERSON who defied all the normal conventions of an actor.
He wasn’t a normal actor at all. He was a paradox. He was a different celestial being altogether.He was one of us. The boy with a telescope in his room, who used to stargaze and get excited about spotting Saturn’s ring.He loved astronomy, so much so that he had bought a piece of land from the International Lunar Lands Registry and the property was registered on June 25, 2018. He had this amazing quality of speaking about quantum physics with the same passion that he used to put in preparing for his roles.What made him different and stand out in the glitzy, shallow Bollywood crowd was his intelligence, his modest background and his never-ending curiosity to learn about things that went far beyond just his profession – the movies.
He was a MISFIT .
He scored AIR 7 in AIEEE whereas other so called bollywood stars with big surnames actually boast about barely passing the 10th standard or of never having been to college. And believe me engineering entrance is not a cup of tea. Even the best of the best breaks down in that process. You can ask any engineering graduate.He didn’t grow up in Bandra or Juhu or Versova even, he worked his way up from Patna to Delhi to his sea-faced apartment in Bandra. He didn’t fit into their set pattern, he knew way more than who the President of the country is.
He was a seeker, a thinker, a poet, a guitarist, a philanthropist.
He grew up in Patna, Bihar, in a middle-class family. His father was an engineer; he too studied engineering.Rajput did a bit of everything in the beginning: He was a dancer in Shiamak Davar’s troupe, a student of acting with Barry John, part of Nadira Babbar’s Ekjute theatre group. He began his TV career on Kis Desh Mein Hai Meraa Dil and became a star when Ekta Kapoor batted for him to play the lead in another show she was producing, Pavitra Rishta. When he left the safety of TV in 2011, he was looking at a decidedly uncertain future.
He wasn’t the most complicated performer but you believed him because he seemed so earnest.
He always had a book around. Most of the time it was a science book, he was passionately interested in astronomy and had wanted to be an astronaut when he was young (he attended a Nasa workshop in 2017 and later sponsored two students to visit the US space agency). His Instagram was unlike any other Hindi film so called star’s, a mix of philosophical musings and pictures of telescopes, starry skies and scientific instruments.He tried to learn coding because he loved computer gaming so much or pondered about the difference between dark matter v/s dark energy or spoke about the concept of Panpsychism with as much excitement as his upcoming films.
Some of his roles which will be always etched in my mind would be these
His this line will always be with me. When asked to him in an interview whether stardom is important to him, he simply said,
“If you give it to me I will keep it…. But at the same time if you don’t give it to me, I don’t miss it.”